Friday, September 2, 2011

Unmasked

Unmasked to see a familiar face that stared at me so long ago
Seems like only yesterday I promised her I'd never change

Years of living without her say
Of what she thought or how she felt

Found her hiding and set her free
With her alive I can finally see

The one I masked so long ago
She's shown me more truth than I'll ever know

I can feel her telling me to be
The girl that loved to be alone

Because alone was her way of knowing him
Alone were her enchanted days

Magical lands were not in her fairy tales
Magical lands were not in her dreams

They were all around her in every step
The king welcomed her with every breath

Existing here was a gift unwrapped
Living here was figuring out

How to use that gift inside
How to live a life unmasked

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

This Safe Place

A stillness you bring to my life running free
A stillness that allows me to see howi you see me
With a smile on my face and a peace in my soul
I find myself thinking about this safe place you've shown me
I find myself waiting for the next moment
I'll be taken into what's mine
This world of you wanting to be with me
Surrounded by people yet feeling seen
Surrounded by noise but hearing a song
I can't understand anymore with my mind
Im only learning to feel this time
What it means to be still and know you are here
What it means to know and find my heart
Beating with you from the very start

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Harmony


 He's in love with his rhythm
I'm getting lost in his beat
His melody entwines my affections 
I can tell he's been places in his soul
Places where we've met before
He leaves a trace of his divine
For me to assemble into my own perfect rhyme
Pieces string away after other affections 
To leave holes of beaming light 
Where rhythm sounds her transcendence and once again
Harmony reunites me with the writing on my walls
She's become my greatest teacher 
And now I understand why he strums along
Behaving because he hears when she calls
She keeps him tied to her direction 
He's found in her a divine perfection
Harmony he says always keeps him from misbehaving

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Dignified

I saw myself in your past thoughts 
I found my heart with new insights
Your intentions as pure as my understanding
Both refined for greater gaining
Of love purified
Of grace undeserving
Of hope that keeps truly preserving
I see myself in this new life
Find my heart with new delight
Lie back and feel peace seep through
The stony road I crossed with you
To a destination still undefined
To a purpose left magnified
All to say we will become 
More dignified through grace

Friday, July 15, 2011

Boundless

No depth to your perfection keeps me gratified
Your word stirred up within me longs to purify
In step I aim to follow
Though so often I fall behind
But you use this view to show me
How I'm never off your mind
How I'm lacking in perception
But never in connection
How I'm in need of truth renown
How I'm falling into a love unbound
So much clarification when I drink from your endless life
So much justification for never going back
To stale waters where a limit was set
To point to where my deepest desires can fully be met

Inspired by Psalms 119:96
~'To all perfection I see a limit; but your commands are boundless.'~

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Light In Bloom

Light behind closed eyes is where you meet me

Light between the lines I form is where you seek me

Where is darkness when Im directly beneath the sun 

What can the wind touch that is not yet consumed by your rays

Walking close to your perfection I cant help but to refrain

From these unintended assertions I was quick to entertain

Let go of those emotions that told me otherwise 

Found your regulation of love that never dies

My open eyes your light now finds 

While bended lines they follow

As the wind dies down nothing remains as certain

As knowing  your rays have followed me here

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Peace by Peace

I get past the noise to hear you say
They don’t know your heart
They can’t plan your steps
I loose track of time to feel your timing
I loose my way to see you guiding
I loose my sense to feel yours 
Pushing me to forget my past
Pushing me to live in the present
Pushing me to see the future in light of what you've done so far
I’ve never known this side before
This side of you that let's me be human
Never asked to understand 
Yet somehow you’ve been showing me it’s all part of the plan
Still don't know myself and what I really want
Still don't know my dreams and where inside they hide
But I know all I need is what you've got 
All I need is to exist in your sweet thoughts
Nowhere in time yet everywhere in between
Holding together every part of me that still can't see
Holding in your hand everything I'll need
Waiting to give it to me peace by peace

Friday, June 3, 2011

Dare to Confess...

I have a confession...
I’m insecure, I’m not sure of anything, I’m sometimes even embarrassed of how I think, how I feel, afraid that it might be wrong. Who am I to control the experiences that make me feel and think about life and God the way I do? I can't that's why I have to cling to Truth, cling to the promise that if He loves me then in Him I am beautiful. How I think, how I feel is beautiful, because it's unique. I can’t attain freedom from my mindsets by thinking I’m secure in all I know, just because I am in Him. Because the truth is I’m not sure of what I believe to be true (what am I really supposed to be doing with my life, what is God really speaking to me). But I am sure of this...Those who seek out Truth never stay the same, they are constantly changing. They are changing in the way they think, the way they act, the way they exist. By changing we learn to be free, we learn that one way of doing something isn’t necessarily the right way or only way, we learn that others might actually be right. By changing we recognize that others are beautiful and unique. To be constantly changing is to be in constant recognition of the beauty of His children, that others are more important than ourselves. To love God is to love others, but how will we love others if we don’t recognize them as being more important than ourselves. To recognize them as we ought to we must deny that we KNOW what truth is, instead cling to seeking it out. 

This way we are constantly changing into the people God really wants us to become. Changing as we transform our thinking into the likeness of Christ. Jesus said that the Counselor will lead us into ALL truth. Are we allowing the Spirit of Truth to guide us, or are we simply thinking we know what is true and have peace about it just because we think it's right. Jesus said that many will be deceivers of themselves....how do we deceive ourselves? I believe it is by assuming we know truth instead of having allowed the Spirit to lead us to that truth. In Jeremiah God speaks to the people who allowed prophets not comissioned by Him to guide them, instead of allowing Him to lead them. He compares trusting others for guidance to Baal worship. That is because the people forget that He is the ONLY way of direction for their life. Im not saying people appointed by God can't help direct where God is leading us, but God specifically wants ALL TRUST to be put in Him. Over and over he talks about not sending the prophets that led his people astray. This shows us that it was too often that people took peoples opinions as truth instead of seeking it out on their own.

If God says my sheep hear my voice, then how come we are so quick to listen to others who say they hear his voice instead of trying to hear it for ourselves? I believe it is because it is much easier to listen to others and wait for the feeling of peace as a sense of confirmation. But what about getting that sense of peace because the persons opinion was what you wanted to hear? Then that would be a false sense of confirmation and not the Holy Spirit bearing witness. The Holy Spirit bears witness even if God is calling us to sacrifice something. The Holy Spirit bears witness in times of suffering and tribulation. The Holy Spirit is not a respecter of a persons will. He will allow things to bear witness to our spirit even if it was the last thing we would have ever thought of as being the direction for our lives. That is why we must rely soley on the word of God and what it says about Truth. For Jesus said that He leaves us a Counselor, the Spirit of Truth, and he “will teach you ALL things, and REMIND you of everything I have said to you.” “He will guide you into ALL truth.” “He will not speak of his own, he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come.”

Has the Holy Spirit been reminding you of what Jesus spoke? Has he been reminding you about loving others, being a servant, walking in humility? Has he been giving you direction that might have cost a price, required the sacrifice of your own will? The life of Jesus and the life of His followers show one thing that is certain...that they lived by “Let your will be done.” Jesus calls each one of us to be a disciple. There is no such thing as a high calling on one persons life and not another’s. Everyone has a high calling...that high calling doesn't happen when you are recognized by this world as some famous evangelist, preacher, singer...etc. Stepping into our high calling means we have OBEYED the voice of God and have allowed His will to go forth in our lives, allowing Him to make of us what HE wants, not what we desire. 

The lives of the disciples paint a perfect picture of what a high calling looks like. They were saved and commissioned by God, but they didn’t jump into full time ministry just because they had already been commissioned. Instead there were years of spiritual growth and instruction that followed. God tested their faithfulness and hearts by seeing how well they served. As they followed Jesus and served Him their testimonies of Him grew stronger. When the time came and they preached repentance and the words of Jesus, people were saved. Because of the faith the disciples had attained from their years of instruction, service, and even tribulation, their words were not only preached with power, but with conviction by the Holy Spirit. Their passion for God did not cause them to preach “ blessings if you believe in Jesus.” Instead they spoke of turning from evil and from sin and accepting TRUTH. Many believed when they spoke, but many did not accept the Truth and allow Him to transform them into carriers of the Truth. Have you allowed the Spirit of Truth to lead you to and remind you of who Jesus and the Father are? Or are you living a life built on what others told you?

(Jan 2009)

Friday, May 27, 2011

One Space

Help me exist in this moment, where I'm in love with mankind
Let compassion burn through me, leave me refined
Let this understanding stain my life
That there are no dreams broken in your time
Let my substance be your touch
Let my countenance be your reach
Drench me in colors that can't fade
At any moment come and invade
This soul that exists as a black hole
That seeks out life to be made whole
Let my rotation be not in vain
Let my gravitation pull in your rain 
For I exist for your pleasure alone
I don't want to make life my own
Only for your purpose, only in your embrace
Help me stand complete in this one space

Monday, May 23, 2011

Abide In Me...

At times I forget what it means to simply abide in Christ. Somehow simply abiding has been cast down to 'passive' living. I get so caught up in needing some kind of greater intimacy, revelation, or knowledge, that I become blinded to the love that grows when I am just resting in him. His love being enough without my longings to tell me otherwise is not a disenchantment of the yearning passion I should have. Instead it is the development of what alone brings peace and real passion into existence. Abiding in him is not only purely passionate but sustains me unto righteousness. How else can he sustain his righteous ones as he has promised to do, unless I give up striving for that righteousness and intimacy with him and exist in the reflection of the cross. That reflection is the abiding. It is the ability to realize that he is not looking at me for righteousness, he is looking at me for faith. When his son becomes my covering for righteousness I understand the beauty of not only grace, but the beauty of simply abiding.